Well let’s start from the beginning,
And to do that we must go to the preamble of 2010, which is Christmas time/ new years...
We had gone to Mexico this year,
I had never been there for Christmas, it would be epic I thought the hole 26 hour drive,
ahh this drive is so boring, I want to be there already, and party it up with the Raveleros" (my mom’s side of the family most live in Mexico) I kept thinking this, thinking it would be the most wonderful memorable Christmas ever, it would be memorable, but not at all wonderful, for on the eve of Christmas eve, my dear sweet cousins husband died, tragic accident, the impact it had on me seeing people I truly care about crying in agony knowing how real this all was, it captivated emotions and sorrow in my heart, which I had never even slightly felt before, he had left a wife and a 3 year old baby behind, and this wasn’t your typical married couple that were mildly to blandly in love, no this young couple was really in love you could see it in their eyes in the way they were with one another, you could just tell they were made for each other, before this horrible experience I never really felt true genuine sympathy or loss of a loved one, but this just made me really feel the pain for the very first time.... as I saw him, the man that was really truly loved but his wife, as I saw her the cousin who summer after summer watched her grow up with him I watched in segments their love and child grow strong and happy, but not laying there was him, and her crying in agony, in disbelief, such a dramatic scene, yet it was no fantasy it was actually happening... I felt helpless why couldn’t of been some bum off the street, a murder a killer maybe even me, not him, I don’t want to see my dear cousin in pain like this, the baby- ohh dear god the baby, she will sorrowed all her life for not growing up with her father...
Basically this was the first point in my life where I truly experienced a sorrowful and real even in life.
as I we were on our way back home, passing by the city of angels right at new years, all I could think about was how lucky I was that I still had my love alive and by my side, I could not wait to get home, to feel his warmth... and to dream together how happy we will one day be together.....
